Over-Intellectualism at Nineteen
Over-Intellectualism At 19 (Though It Started Before, Just Ask Me Then)
By Elias McEaneney
I thrive on the unfamiliar
And yet, I disdain it more than the crawling feeling down my spine
You know this, yet you disregard it. You know you feel it.
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(Schneiderman, Neil et al. “Stress and health: psychological, behavioral, and biological determinants.”
Annual review of clinical psychology vol. 1 (2005): 607-28. doi:10.1146/annurev.clinpsy.1.102803.144141)
It would be a lie to say I don’t thrive on stress.
Maybe it’s the underdeveloped frontal lobe, maybe it’s the drive to learn
I’m not fully sure
But it drives me
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It’s a quiet stress, though. Sure, the kind that makes you push
Push harder than you actually can
Yet taking the unfamiliar
And using it to push into the unfamiliar
Means you’ll run out in the middle
But isn’t that okay?
I’m not sure
It got me- it got us- to where we are! It was our lifeblood for 19 years!
…
It’s what I am!
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It’s what I am
Is it?
Are you not the smile that grows when the trees shine
with the gold that Sun so gratefully shares?
Are you not the mind that yearns for more
surrounded by the comforts and pains of your literature?
Are you not the hands that peel spines from the shelves
knowing a cover is not all, peering at the lives inside?
Are you not the bones that ache
and the muscles that push anyways?
Are you not the questions you ask
and the answers you so quickly reflect back?
“Recent reviews (e.g., Aron et al., 2006) show that we know
a great deal about all kinds of love”
Reis, Harry T., and Arthur Aron. “Love: What Is It, Why Does It Matter, and How Does It Operate?” Perspectives on
Psychological Science, vol. 3, no. 1, 2008, pp. 80–86. JSTOR, http://www.jstor.org/stable/40212231.
You are the love you show
despite the uncertainty that others will understand it for what it is
Uncertainty does not have to be eliminated
checked off a list of everything there is to know
Nor is that your job
But it’s what I like
And it’s what I’m good at
So, love it.
Bare it when it’s hard
And love it the same after
No matter what
But love yourself the same.
“It is not from the benevolence of the butcher, the brewer, or the baker, that we expect our dinner, but from their regard to their own interest. We address ourselves, not to their humanity but to their self-love, and never talk to them of our own necessities but of their advantages.”
An Inquiry into the Nature and Causes of the Wealth of Nations by Adam Smith,
edited with an Introduction, Notes, Marginal Summary and an Enlarged Index
by Edwin Cannan (London: Methuen, 1904). Vol. 1.
Will I be loved back?
By others?
Who really knows.
But certainly by yourself.
